Just because my hair is curly doesn't mean it's nappy...

there is a difference. These two black girls on the city bus today came up to me and said oh you look like that mixed boy off high school musical I was like okay… then one of the girls stated touching my hair your hair is so soft, how did you get it like that? she starts digging her fingers to the roots of my head anyways you should straighten it. it looks nappy you got bad hair.

I actually laughed because both of these girls had no hair, not much anyway one girl had the worse weave job I have ever seen and was bald around the edges, the others hair had so much gel in it and was placed into this tiny tiny ponytail that wasn’t even bigger then my thumb it looked like a feather.

Love is beautiful....

but I get sick of talking about it and hearing about it all the damn time, makes me exhausted.

I adore my big eyes, my full lips, my curly hair and curvy body...

I adore me not to sound conceited but I don’t see anything wrong with looking in the mirror and seeing yourself as beautiful without pointing out every flaw.

That keyword: that as in the past was all just shit, but this as in now, is for real.

I hate sugar coaters more then anything because specially when it is someone your really care about. I just bugs me how you sweeten everything up, everything that poured from your mouth was just to darn perfect to be believable and it makes it hard to really love and care for a person like that. Like do you do that to everyone is that how you keep people around in your life or was it just me. I never really questioned the things you said but I never believed them either. I will admit at one point I felt like you actually had me and that the feelings I felt for you were sincere but I don’t and I never felt that way because if I did why am I the way I am now and if you did why are you the way you are now? Maybe it was just the attention and the flattering I loved but not the person behind it. And when were done with that someone else picked up where you left off and I didn’t feel anything. I actually thought that if you weren’t in my life anymore I’d feel sad like I lost someone who meant so much to me at one point but that turned out not to be the case because I went right on with life and everything was fine. I’m not calling you a liar but I will say I never believed any of that so if you were for real then I’m sorry but it’s kind of hard to tell when everything you said seemed so scripted.

Watching Do the Right Thing :)

My muslim friends think I'm a whore...

they said that to me today when I was talking about my boyfriend “Your such a whore” I didn’t take it to the heart or anything but I just don’t understand how the relationship with my boyfriend makes me a whore when I know for a fact they all either have or had boyfriends and probably were the same way. I don’t think there is any relationship where there is no feeling on each other and making out and probably sex as well [not that I know of].

I just don’t like when it comes to certain things like the way I dress, what I do and say makes me even less of a person then they are. They aren’t some little goody good girls they swear, they wear tight clothes, make- up and make out with their boyfriends too not saying that it makes you a bad girl either so how come I’m the bad person here. I can accept them for who they are because the way I look at it we aren’t really that different from one another at all.